Olive Eyes

I’d forgotten to pump-up the car tyres.

The car’s out the front.

We’ve got to be going soon.

The appointment note is crumpled in my hand.

It’s over an hours drive to the city.

My mother-in-law is waiting to see us off.

She’s pensive, knowing I’m on edge.

Feeling for her daughters predicament.

My wife, my patient, looks at me forlornly.

Her pleading olive eyes make me more panicky.

Now to transfer her from our bed.

Into her borrowed wheelchair.

I’ve no idea, it’s my first go.

Damn, the chair’s tyre’s are nearly flat too.

No time now, we must leave.

Another transfer into the car.

I almost stumble, she’s awkward to move.

She’s unsteady, her legs aren’t working.

I firmly grab her around the waist.

And she clasps her arms over my shoulders.

A gentle embrace of respect.

We wryly smile at each other.

She looks at me, with her pleading olive eyes.

I stay strong, but I’m anxiously shaking.

Finally I’ve positioned her into the car.

I somehow fold the borrowed wheelchair.

Frustrated, throwing the chair into the boot.

Off we drive, I’m trying not to over-speed.

Nervously over-gripping the steering wheel.

The whites of my knuckles plain to see.

Soon we’re approaching the city centre.

Agape, I’ve little idea of where to go.

She looks at me with her pleading olive eyes.

Bravely I say “Just a few more blocks”.

Blindly lucky, I eventually find our destination.

 

An imposing building, tall and dark grey.

Ungracefully I transfer her out of the car.

Wheeling her in, “damn” these flat tyres.

Eight storey’s up to the Doctors rooms.

He’s a renowned Neurologist, there’s none in our town.

We greet him, he’s a confident, but sombre man.

And my wife looks at him with her pleading olive eyes.

Knowingly, I think, he’s seen those sort of eyes before.

There were tests, lots of questions, and more examinations.

Our time there seemed to be standing still.

And silently we wait for blood results to return.

Eerily the Doctor begun to speak and explain.

A strange aura of hush fell upon us.

As we listened to his authoritative voice.

“It’s my diagnosis, that you’ve the Neurological disorder, Multiple Sclerosis”.

 

The long hour’s drive home was stunned quiet.

Except for the many rolling tears.

Trickling from my wife’s pleading olive eyes.

And on the road the cars tyres felt flatter.

The next day, I pumped the tyres up.

On her borrowed wheelchair, and on the car.

That signalled the beginning of our long journey.

Another thirty years of her gracious and everlasting smile.

Wheeling over the lumpy roads, until the last bend.

Looking at me no more, with her pleading olive eyes.

 

Ivor Steven (c)  2018.

 

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ivor20

Hi, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I'm a retired, part-time plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer. I've been blogging for 18 months, and writing poems for nearly 18 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I've been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems.

74 thoughts on “Olive Eyes”

  1. Be sure Ivor your words on a page will bring you comfort and be cherished for decades to come. Thanks for stopping by earlier today. I accidently hit a button I hardly knew existed and disappeared your comment. Chris.

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    1. Thanks Chris, the comment should still be in your “My Site”, click on comments, then click on spam icon at top or pending or deleted, ….. hehe, I’ve done it to myself too !!

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  2. Oh, Ivor… I can’t even begin… Now I understand why it took you so long to write. You did an amazing job. It is just beautiful. I had to take off my glasses to write this because they fogged up with tears… all the love, new friend. xxx

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    1. Thank you Amber, A day in my life, that’s been part of my vivid dreams for a long time, now that I’ve finally written it down, my dreams may be less vivid….Don’t worry, I’ve always a big supply of tissues here

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  3. Hello Ivor when i read Olive Eyes this morning I really could relate; because I once worked with a co-worker whose wife was dying from kidney failure. Whenever I worked with him, which was often, I tried to keep him laughing and talking and supported him emotionally as much as I could. When she died in her sleep he was devastated and it has taken him a long time to learn to live with his loss.

    Those who experience losing a partner or a child never get over it – the best one can do is take each day one at a time as they struggle to come to terms with their loss.

    The fear, uncertainty and the sense of powerlessness and the struggle to remain competent and strong for your wife as you faced this adversity together really come through in your words.

    Olive Eyes is well written and beautifully expressed a testament to your emotional endurance. I’m sorry that life required you and your wife to pay such an unfair price and I truly wish that i could have there as a friend to support you during your hour of greatest need!

    🙂

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    1. Thank you for your awesome story, comment and support, I’m quite overwhelmed with your beautiful words, and like everyone else who have read my poem today, you’ve gently placed another few sparkles over my heart. It’s nearly 6 years since Carole passed, and I’m reasonably healed, and her memories are my treasures. “Olive Eyes” has been a story I’ve wanted to tell for a long time now, which basically took place 36 years ago. I’m hoping that there’s people that have been in a similar situation, who might read my story and gain some strength from my words, letting them know they are not alone in their battle, and they can reach out for help……. Thanks again Dabir

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  4. My computer is misbehaving today and I have been losing comments I have written. I see why this was so hard to write Ivor. When we love someone so much we carry their burden twice as heavy and the responsibility of that is too much for one soul to bear. but memories come in all forms and the bad ones give way to happy ones eventually, thank you for sharing a part of Carole’s life and legacy she left in the tender hearted man you have become.

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  5. I can so relate to that first trip, Ivor. Went down the same way for me except I collapsed in the yard on the way to the car and we had to call the paramedics. It was so distressing. I admire you very much for your wonderful care of her for all those years. Your poem reminds me a lot of some of the work poet John Updike did while he was in and out of the hospital dying of cancer. It’s very somber and real, too. This is my favorite poem by him… https://promptlings.wordpress.com/2015/02/21/dogs-death-by-john-updike-2/

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      1. It’s when I jot the main items down from my dreams, and the little notes act as prompts to later help me recall more of the details of my dreams. It’s a process I’ve been doing for nearly 20 years now, and sometimes it works 😊

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  6. This dedication to your beautiful wife and her olive eyes is so heartfelt thing. It was heartbreaking to me but I also felt the love you two shared which was sweeter than ever. I pray to God to keep her soul always in peace and to keep you healthy, happy and this much creative always.

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    1. Thank you Tapasi for your lovely comments, I’m pleased you felt all the emotions of that fateful day. Your kind wishes are very much appreciated 😊❤️❤️

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