Chariot Of Fears

To all young hearts, bought and sold.

Broken, shattered, and made of gold.

Have you ever watched your love die.

Have you seen tears of sand in her eyes.

Did you ever feel her grasp let go.

Did you see her blood drain of flow.

To all you who pretend, reading here.

To all you who think, you know how and where.

Have you ever been in the death ambulance.

Have you held her hand without a glance.

Life happens like that, you see.

Happened to me, not a chance to plea.

I traveled often, with her and thee.

So many times, angels entered her grave.

How many times would she be so brave.

More than a dozen, through the heartache years.

Finally a thirteenth chariot, did fill, with tears and fears.

Ivor Steven (c) 2018.

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G'day, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I'm an ex-industrial chemist, and a retired plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer. I've been blogging for over 2 years, and writing poems for 19 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I've been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems.

52 thoughts on “Chariot Of Fears”

  1. how moving and sad Ivor. Although I am no longer young but feel addressed and know what you are talking about, even if I have not experienced your grief. We all die a little bit each day, some days more and some days less , on some days we think it’s time to go for ever.

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  2. And here was I expecting a little sunshine to come our way.
    I’ve been there too Ivor and those moments are re-lived over and over. If only we knew how to control it, those blues that hit us every now and then.
    I have a feeling they’ll become less and less and I’m expecting that very soon. πŸ™‚

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    1. Thank you ❀️ Sue, they do become less and less, and I had an incident yesterday that triggered the moment, but I’m fine, my writings help me get through the moment. 😊 xx

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    1. Hi Claudia, I was having a recall moment, probably triggered by an incident yesterday, and I wrote it all done, the pouring out of words, always seems to help me. Yep, there were plenty of rough rides.


  3. I’m so sorry that you have lived through this, dearest. I’m sorry for your loss and your pain and your enduring love and the suffering you both went through.
    Your words are so moving and beautiful.
    Thank you for sharing your heart with us xxx

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    1. Oh Amberley, thank you for your thoughtful comments, I’m very touched by your lovely words. These events happened a while ago, but last week I had some huge memory flashes, and I just felt compelled to write them down, I seem too feel betterer after sharing my most inner thoughts, and thank you for listening to my heart, and for grasping a piece of my Angel’s celestial stardust.


      1. I don’t really rhink it matyers how long ago a loss occurs…I think we just get used to the hurt… I’m sorry about the flashes… did something happen to bring them about?
        It is good that you have an outlet…

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