I’m reading sacred scriptures
searching for her leftover pieces
I drank a mango smoothie instead
to feed my word starved head
I’m following the score
winners cheating on soft hearts
Demons covering the doors
and angels cannot reach the charts
I’m laying her on a massage table
listening to a sad amble
I prod her skin deep
Shoulders, down to her feet
I’m rubbing salve over her soul
cleansing her masking sheet
Revealing wounded sandholes
bruised upon a pebble beach
I’m a healer who’s lost
Gravitated by her sorrow
How do I catch a falling arrow
And mend her broken cross
Ivor Steven (c) Β 2018
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G'day, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I'm an ex-industrial chemist, and a retired plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer.
I've been blogging for over 2 years, and writing poems for 19 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I've been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems.
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Mango, yum yum. We have plenty here in our country. We have the sweetest mangoes ever.
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every stanza like a story of its own. such beauty in your words.
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Thank you Gina, another one of my dreams that I tried to write about. Actually I’m quite pleased how it turned out. The dream was about me being some sort of spiritual healer, but not being able to help this unfortunate soul. I suppose guilt complexes during my caring years for Carole.
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it is very beautiful writing Ivor. guilt is hard to deal with. we always want to know if we could have been or done better.
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Yes I always wanted to do more, or felt I could’ve done more. Basically I’m ok with everything now, But I had the dream last night, so I wrote about it, haha, hoping to appease my dreamtime gods….
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Tender in its sadness
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So beautifully correct, Thank you Derrick.
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How do I catch a falling arrow
And mend her broken cross— i love this line in particular; but the poem in itself a beautiful story…
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Thank you Mich, and I’ve just replied to Gina, explaining the story, maybe you could read our exchange of comments(Singledust)
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I will Ivor…thanks..
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Luscious and beautiful my dear π
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Wow!! This is incredible. Soft and gentle, full of sadness and a desire to help. π Also, mango smoothies are the best. ππΉ
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Wow, thank you β€οΈ and I couldn’t think of a nice title, then I said, might as well call it Mango Smoothie, anyhow now I think π€ the title suits my poem ππ
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Mangos !!! Yum, yum, yum π
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Wonderful Ivor. Maybe you’re feeling hungry… Mango Smoothie and Rabbit Stew. I love that you’re a spiritual healer in your dreams! π
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I think a bit like Doctor Who π
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I could be your assistant, I wouldn’t mind a spot of time travelling!
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That would be fun, intrepid Time Travelers π
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It would indeed, though not sure I’d want to meet a dalek!
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I think the singing ood’s would be nice π
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Yes i agree
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The best smoothie, ever, in so many ways. Such a sumptuous taste to this poem, Ivor, the words just glide.
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Donβt know if it because of the mango or the words but it is refreshingπ
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Either way, I’m please you enjoyed my poem, thank you Ortensia.
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The pleasure is all mine as usual Ivorπ
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You are so kind xx
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Because you deserve itππ
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This seems full of mixed feelings Ivor. Over all it left me feeling sad, because ‘you’ are left without being able to heal.
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Don’t feel sad Colleen, my words were basically about my guilt complexes during a dream I had 2 nights ago, but really I’m very well healed these days, I’m OK. And I always feel betterer after I’ve written my words down.
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I understand the benefits of writing something down. I’m glad the ‘complexes’ were only part of the dream, and not the awakened Ivor.
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More bad dreams?
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Not too bad, I’d call it a perculiar dream, !!
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Well, you and I are both kind of peculiar π
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Thanks Walt…perculiar… I found this comment in spam…
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You’re welcome my friend π
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Profound – one of your best.
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Thank you Jan, I might be getting better with age, like a good vintage red wine
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There are some fantastic lines in this Ivor. I especially like the closing stanza. I know it wasn’t a choice you made, but you are a born carer xx
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Thanks Jane, yes sometimes I believe I was the chosen one to look after Carole, and it was all meant to be π xx
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Despite all the suffering and pain in the world, the more I see, the more I believe that there is a pattern to life, and a reason for the path we tread xx
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Yes we do have our path to follow, as you have been following your path, sometimes it seems so rocky and insurmountable, and other times it’s like walking on water. xx
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I was born with a lot to learn, and I suppose you could say I’ve been lucky in a way. all the strife has given me an understanding that I didn’t possess when I was young – and I have many compensations for the horror I’ve lived through.
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Yes Jane, We have to really live life, to understand our own life xx
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It takes some of us a long time…
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Stunning write, Ivor! I know it hurts our souls to yearn for our loved ones. But, keep writing, for every word spilled is growth.
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Thank you Linda, and yes every word I write is a sweet for my soul.
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You write beautifully!
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you’re so kind,
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How do I catch a moving arrow
And mend a broken cross ,bruised upon a Pebble Beach,i am a healer99 who is lost
I hear your,crd uourpsim
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Love this piece! Reminds me of what happens when ‘soft hearts’ get broken for the first time. It takes time to heal. Favorite part of the poem: “I’m a healer who lost.”
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Thank you β€οΈ for reading my poem, and yes, you’ve basically got it right, in this case I’m wondering if I’ve done enough for her, and feeling a bit quilts, but definitely about soft hearts π being broken
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Magnificent piece!! Loved loving it
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Thank you β€οΈ Kim, one of those writes where the words flowed out right
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Absolutely yes
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Beautiful poem, Ivor.
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Thank you Ann, the words ended up being a special poem for me.
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Very special, Ivor.
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Very thought provoking, Ivor. This line really appealed ‘Revealing wounded sandholes
bruised upon a pebble beach’. Thanks for sharing π
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Thank you for your kind comments, and thanks for following my blog/web site, I hope you enjoy reading my humble writings, I’m from Geelong, Australia. Cheers. Ivor
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Favorite so far. You changed up the last verse. abba instead of abab. I’m curious about this. Really beautiful. β₯.
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Thank you Niki, yes I do curious things, I don’t conform sometimes in my format, but I don’t worry as long the reader unders my words and my message.
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Yes understands and even better feels it which I did. β₯.
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π That’s all I want to do, have my readers feel what I’m feeling through my words. π
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Beautiful poem.
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Funny what a mango Smoothie does to one’s memory
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I have mango poems too… will have to find one and post it one of these days!
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I have trouble finding my poems, I’ve got them stored in alphabetical order, but that doesn’t help me one bit, I can’t remember there damn name/title anyway. π
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π you need a better system!
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Ok, I’ll eat more carrots, or they only good for the eyes, not the old memory cocoon.
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