Beyond The Trapdoor

I’ve been there so often

I’ve lost my fear, gone, forgotten

The darkest abyss

Under a cobblestone crest

Opening into a gloomy manhole

Trapdoor to the soul


Below the floor

My elbows do score

Over dried out soil

Beneath sticky cobweb curtains

Fingernails claw my way

Toes pushing against crumbled clay


No space, dusty tears

No air, dirt I chew

Shouldering under bearers

Squeezing, I burst through

I’m here, there’s a job to do

I begin searching for you


Ivor Steven (c)  2018

Published by


G'day, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I'm an ex-industrial chemist, and a retired plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer. I've been blogging for over 2 years, and writing poems for 19 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I've been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems.

55 thoughts on “Beyond The Trapdoor”

    1. Thank you Sameera, the poem is a mixture of the realities of working and crawling under a floor, with the surreal feeling of darkness when your loved one dies, and I’ve actually experienced these thoughts while laying under a floor working, and it’s emotionally a weird feeling….

      Liked by 2 people

      1. I understand Ivor. 🙂
        I can feel pain in lines. From deepest loss comes the greatest poetry. ❤ Life is such and we need to embrace the way it is. 😉

        Liked by 1 person

    1. I’ve a fear of getting stuck under the house, and I had a fear of losing Carole, so I tied them together in the poem, and actually to help when I’m feeling a bit panicky under the house, I think of Carole, …

      Liked by 1 person

    1. Thank you Ali, I’m so pleased you liked these two lines, I had a jumble of words trying to explain my confinement, and eventually I honed them down to these simplest of phrases, and I’m happy I captured the feeling. 😊

      Liked by 1 person

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

This site uses Akismet to reduce spam. Learn how your comment data is processed.