Behind Closed Doors, Poems That Mean Nothing To Me Anymore.

What door have you closed
in your life, and why?
Will you ever open it again?

Sandbox Writing Challenge 2018 — Exercise 20, Posted by calensariel in Blogging




Never again I say

Do I give my heart away

That’s the way my life may stay

Words will be left here today

Wasted in their disarray

Abandoned yesterday



Ivor Steven (c)  2018

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G'day, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I'm an ex-industrial chemist, and a retired plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer. I've been blogging for over 2 years, and writing poems for 19 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I've been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems.

54 thoughts on “Behind Closed Doors, Poems That Mean Nothing To Me Anymore.”

    1. They were poems and thoughts of a bygone lover after Carole, and looking back, I think I was just far too vulnerable, and my heart was still in disarray. Thank you Gina for your kindness.

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      1. you have a loving heart Ivor, I believe you want to console and protect and that gives you solace in return. grief I read it just so much love with no where to go. please rejoice that you have this capability to love.

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      2. Thanks for your positive words. Oh btw, I only posted your book off yesterday, sorry it’s been quite remiss of me, however the parcel is on it’s way, maybe another 10 days. Cheers.

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  1. I’m guessing you just wrote the first one? If so, is that still the way you feel? Or has the passing of time softened that feeling? Great stuff, Ivor! It’s always such a pleasure to read your writing…

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    1. I wrote Neverland this morning 😊 but I left a little opening for myself “That’s the way my life may stay”, for when I’m bound to soften, 😉 All the pasted poems are from 5 years ago. When I was a relationship, but she was never interested in my poems, I suppose I should’ve seen the writing on the wall then. 😊 And now I’m going through a bit of a cleansing process. I so glad you liked my response to the Challenge. Again I was trying something different. 😊

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      1. I’m sure how creative I am, but when it comes to writing I’m quite the uneducated naive type and my knowledge of English Expression is minimal, all I have is words from the heart and an abundance of imagination

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  2. It takes a lot to me to close a door, but once it’s done it stays closed.
    After time when you look back at those things you did or wrote about those “doors”, you hardly understand why you wanted to open them at all…

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  3. I enjoyed reading this collection of poems Ivor. Each of them a little glimpse into your heart back then.
    I think finding your second love went some way to relieving the pain of losing your first; She didn’t stay but perhaps she was never meant to.

    No need to feel guilty and no need to feel sad, have a little celebration of what you once had.
    Forget about looking but maybe leave the window a little ajar.
    Remember this quote I used the other day…
    “When you look for the right person, you always end up with the wrong one. But when you just sit by the corner and wait, he comes along and shares the corner with you.” You might like to Swap the he for she though! 😀

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    1. Oh Sue, your words of encouragement are so good for me, and yes I’m smiling, as I look back, she wasn’t meant to stay. The answer to the “Prompt” wasn’t quite true, just some poetic licence by Ivor, but those old poems are sort of cute, from when my heart was beating fast…..

      As for meeting someone…… It’s a cold corner here today…. I hope she’s all rugged up….. xx


      1. I wrote this little poem earlier in the day.
        I Am A Rock.
        “Please don’t kick me
        Pick me up, I’m free
        Please carry me one more mile
        My stone-face will smile”

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      2. Oh I like that one. Here’s my version of your version
        “I’m solid as a rock so please don’t throw me back in the sea.
        I’m light as a feather try picking me up I’m yours, I’m free.
        If you carry me further just another mile, you’ll get to see my stoney face crack into another smile” 😃

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  4. God never closed one door but he opened another Ivor, leave that door ajar. On a separate note altogether – those two you could not open could I ask you to double click on the blue line below Summer and see if it opens let me know if it works or otherwise. Many thanks. Chris.

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  5. Ivor, thank you for sharing your heart, through your words with us, with me. I can obviously relate to losing the one person we love so much……my heart is still in a bit of disarray…I’m counting on my Jim to play matchmaker if its to be!!! :)))

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    1. I’ve no regrets about my relationship after Carole’s passing, the experience was definitely nice for me, but I didn’t expect it to end, I’m a loyal and caring person, and my eventual unwanted departure disturbed me greatly, but I’ve moved on again, and if my angel happens to match-make me again, I won’t say “never again”

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  6. Very bittersweet, Ivor- but lovely in a yearning way.
    I think when we experience that great love of our lives, it might feel a bit like settling when we have to “work” at a new relationship, as the great one was just lived and enjoyed in such a carefree natural way.
    I am certainly gun-shy but think you are the sort of man who has so much to give – leave that door open a crack, ok?

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  7. Thank you ❤️ Shannon, yes I’m a bit gun-shy at the moment, but in my words I’ve left the door slightly ajar, and I suppose neverland is a long way away, 😊I won’t say “never again”


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