A Million Times Again

My old emotions are flowing

Soaked tissues scatter my room

I feel my wings are regrowing

You’ll see me flying soon


I’m recalling our first date

We’re holding hands like old mates

In my dreams

I’m holding you, a million times again


I’m rejoicing about when we proposed to each other

We’re kissing and cuddling like true lovers

In my dreams

I’m proposing to you, a million times again


I’m remembering our wedding day

We’re both closely whispering, forever and a day

In my dreams

I’m marrying you, a million times again


Ivor Steven (c)  2018

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Hi, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I'm a retired, part-time plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer. I've been blogging for 18 months, and writing poems for nearly 18 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I've been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems.

61 thoughts on “A Million Times Again”

      1. The cloud does pass after a week or so, but these I don’t mind the emotions I’m having at the moment, I accept them now, and actually I soak up the joy of still having her within my soul, thank you Stella for your very kind words, and I love you for understanding how I’m feeling. xxx

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  1. I think the first ever comment I made to you was that your poems could be put to music and here we are again over a year later and still, this reads like a song you would have sung to your beautiful love.

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    1. I was actually listening to the song in my post, By Your Side, crying with the music and trying to write my words, pen in one hand and tissues in the other, and I’m so pleased you liked my “song” 😊😁🎼❤️

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  2. Beautiful, sweet, poignant! I have tears in my eyes right now.
    She would be so happy to know your wings are regrowing and you will fly soon. 🙂 I know she is with you in spirit and in love and will always reside in your heart. She is rooting you on each and every moment of every day. 🙂 The tears will (and do) come, so let them flow…then think of some happy memories and let the laughter flow. 🙂

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    1. 😊 Oh the tears come, and as you say I’m always thinking of the happy days, 🤗🤗🤗
      And today for your birthday, I’ve done from the list numbers, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 11, 12, 13, 15, 16, 21, 23, 26, not bad for just one day😉😊. I’m nearly half, happy birthday Carolyn xxx🤗🤗🤗

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    1. Thank you dear Lemon, It’s our Anniversary this week, and I’m always a bit mushy, slushy and teary, but I’m Ok, enjoying all these strong and beautiful emotions, and I’ve plenty of tissues to last me out. xxx


      1. I know, you always are there xxx
        During my passage through time
        I’m slowly gathering her diamonds from the mine
        Quietly learning that falling autumn leaves are her chimes
        Giving me more inspiration to live and shine


      1. I love hugs, i’m the cuddly type. They’ll probably be a few more poems to celebrate…. some words from earlier in the day.
        During my passage through time
        I’m slowly gathering her diamonds from the mine
        Quietly learning that falling autumn leaves are her chimes
        Giving me more inspiration to live and shine

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    1. I hope you’re not too sad, although I’m very emotional, I am enjoying the deep feelings my soul is experiencing and soaking up the waves of memories with lots of love and happiness xxxx 😊🤗🤗

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  3. You write with all your heart just as you loved! And Jane is right most will never know the depth and beauty of the love you experienced. So grieve and grow she would want you to keep living, she is your muse 🙂

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      1. I’m a sprightly swallow
        I don’t like to wallow
        Fly with me tomorrow
        Above the hills and hollows
        I’ll swim across the river of sorrow
        Walk through fields of green and yellow
        Pushing my old empty barrow
        Looking for her golden halo
        Somewhere over the rainbow

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  4. Very beautiful Ivor. It’s my anniversary later this month too. A Golden one. These emotions of ours tend to hit us out of nowhere. I’m trying hard not to let them take charge again. It’s a difficult battle!

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    1. Yes I know what you mean, but somehow even though I’m full of emotions, I’ve learnt to enjoy the feelings pouring from my heart as her message of love to my soul, and I soak it all up within with a wry smile, and plenty of flowery tissues ☺️😂❤️

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