Frustrating And Difficult

The day is wet and dismal

My view of the world is cold and gloomy

I’m troubled in my restricted room

My penwork is a scrawl

To use the keypad on my phone

Is frustrating and difficult

I showered this morning

With the help of nurse Skye

It was frustrating and difficult

Eating my hospital meals

Is frustrating and difficult

To walk anywhere, any distance

I need the assistance of my nurse

It’s frustrating and difficult

I’ve been here before

Eighteen long years ago

Then, I was caring for Carole too

It was very frustrating and difficult

I’m feeling alienated against the norm

My body is worn and torn

Life is frustrating and difficult.

I’m wishing for a chance to be reborn

Ivor Steven (c) 2018

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G'day, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I'm an ex-industrial chemist, and a retired plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer. I've been blogging for over 2 years, and writing poems for 19 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I've been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems.

39 thoughts on “Frustrating And Difficult”

  1. Your recent stroke does not sound like the mini one you first described! I am so sorry to hear this and I really feel for you. Your anxiety and frustrations are coming across loud and clear.

    I wonder if your brother could get hold of a tablet for you, it would ease the frustration of using your phone with its small keyboard and screen. These days they are very reasonably priced.

    It was during a hospital stay that I purchased my first tablet, and it’s the best thing I ever did.

    I will continue to keep you in my thoughts Ivor, get well very soon. πŸ™‚ xx

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      1. I do understand Ivor, I really do. Your illness, your infections, and now this, life has become an uphill struggle for you. I admire your tenacity, your ability to keep on writing and doing what you enjoy the most.

        You have a lot of friends out here and we all hold positive thoughts for your speedy recovery. πŸ™‚

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      2. To be honest it’s not going to be very speedy, I’ve been sick and weak for too long πŸ˜• it’s really going take a while, I don’t think I’ll be home 🏑 for Christmas, but that’s ok. 😊

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  2. Sorry to read of your continuing illness Ivor. Now that you are confined to bed the only way is up. Keep working the scribble pad, your positive attitude to life is coming through. Your universal friends will keep you in their thoughts and prayers.

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  3. I could repeat everything the others say…..because I think we all feel the same way. Hoping for each post of yours because I’m looking for the progress reports. Sending my hopes and wishes side by side with everyone else Ivor ❀

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      1. Aw. It makes me ache to think of all you’ve been through and how tired you must be. 😦

        Best wishes for the brain tests. Tell them I said you have a wonderful brain, a poetic, brain, a smart brain, a kind brain…and they better take good care of it.

        I’m afraid if they started investigating my brain they’d find it to be small and silly. HA! πŸ˜€ Zombies would not want to eat my bring it is snack-size and tastes funny! πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜›

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  4. Each day I learn that everything could be worse, that there is no real reason for complaining…. but this is wrong…the reason is in our head and not our health or other circumstances… I always adored your way to express your pain, your frustration but also your hope in your poems and I believe that you can gain lot if force through your writing… you are a fighter you are a believer you will hopefully go back home soon! ❀️

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    1. Thank you ❀️ Anie, it’s all getting closer. I’m fasting again today, for a Pet scan at 10.40am,so they’re still testing me, but I’m feeling reasonable, not allowed to go home until the Doctor’s have solved my mysterious problem😁. Have been walking around the wards the last couple of days πŸ˜‰πŸ˜†

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