An Empty Shell

I’m a broken stick

Hit by a tonne of bricks

I’ve stroke fatigue

Tiredness out of my league

The psyche says go

My body says no

Yesterday everything was fine

Today nothing is mine

Only rest and sleep

Not even a sneaky peep

They say, what’s wrong

I say, who’s playing my song

They say, you look ok

I say, I cannot stay

Read us your poem

No ! I want to go home

Don’t spoil the show

I’m an empty shell, they do not know

 

** Please note: Feature Image above, copied with the permission by Niki Flow, this is her blog site.  https://under1000skies.org/

 

Ivor Steven (c)  July 2019

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G'day, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I'm an ex-industrial chemist, and a retired plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer. I've been blogging for over 2 years, and writing poems for 19 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I've been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems.

51 thoughts on “An Empty Shell”

    1. I’ll be fine… It’s a thing that happens on the day, usually only goes a day or two,
      I used to get upset, but now I’ve learnt more about them…. It’s the body having little after-shocks… your nervous system has to work so hard during this recovery process, then all a sudden everything stops and system wants to have a rest….. it’s a very strange sensation and realisation… of how our nervous can control us… xxx I’m feeling a lot better tonight.. haha I’ll sleep well… Thank you for concern Punam

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  1. writing about down days makes them better to manage i presume Ivor, i know when i put my thoughts to words the difficult days makes sense to me. thinking of you and hoping you are feeling a lot lighter now.

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    1. Thank you Gina, I’m ok , I was so tired, I thought I was over these body after-shocks, but the stroke recovery program is a long a very long process, and i know there’ll always be those few bad days… another good night’s sleep and I’ll be fine….. best I have an Ice-cream… sure to make me feel better… xx

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      1. make it a double scoop and off to bed straight after. there’ll be a mix of all sorts of days just take them as they come, one day at a time, that is all you can do. you are a fighter and survivor of much more than this. i have faith in you

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  2. Always put yourself first when you need to rest and recoup. Hope you got some good rest since you posted this poem…I hope you are doing better today!
    Writing down how we feel, in any form, but especially in poem form is good therapy and good for our emotions, mind, body, heart and soul. 🙂
    I can relate to your poem. With some of my health-issues I’ve had to learn to say “no” to people who want me to continue to do a lot of volunteer work and extra stuff. I do what I can, but sometimes I have to take a break. It’s all good. 🙂
    (((HUGS))) 🙂

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    1. Thank you Carolyn for your kind words and yes I’ve had a very long sleep 😴😉💤, and feeling like back to normal this morning. I’m happy the fatigue downer passed quickly. Sometimes they can go for a few days. Maybe they will gradually dissipate over time. As you might know, they’re frustrating and unexpected.
      Looks like I’ll be ok today, not do too much, but hopefully I can get to my Open Mic night laterer, socially I find the evenings invigorating for my soul. 😊❤️((Hugs))

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    1. Haha tomorrow is here Colleen 😁🤗, and yes I’m feeling a lot betterer, thank you Colleen ☺️. Onwards and upwards here I go again ☺️

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    1. Thank you Debbie, yes today has been a far betterer day, and despite the cold, I think l’ll go to the Open Mic night, later on. I find the evening, so invigorating for my soul, lots of positive vibes. 😊🤗🙂🤔

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      1. Excellent, Ivor! Yes, I’m sure it’ll be a nice pick-me-up for you..hope you got there & had a fun time! 😊 I love open mic nights, always different & a great atmosphere. We have one once a month in our village pub, & we always try to support it.

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      2. Yes… I got there Debbie, And I had a lovely night… very tired today… I recited 2 poems, and they went over exceptionally….. “We Are Not Worthy, Nor Grand”, and then my new one “White Clouds Over Forest Snail Trails”

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      3. That’s great to hear, on both counts, Ivor, sounds like it was just what you needed..apart from being tired, that is! Hope you went to bed happy, & managed to charge your batteries up a bit after a good night’s sleep! ☺️

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