Who’s Left to Row the Boat

G’day dear readers, today I’m celebrating !! It’s exactly “20” years since I suffered my first stroke…. And HERE I am, another “2” strokes later, still alive and kicking goals….. Below is my poem I wrote only a few years ago, to try and explain the pain and trauma I was feeling at the time of my first stroke…. Some of you have seen/read this piece before, but to celebrate my recovery, I’m presenting this poem again, and hopefully promote what I think is the essence of life – “How rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist”.

Who’s Left to Row the Boat

The storms are too many to count

Emotional lows had weathered me out

Her journey with MS was a struggle

How much lower could our lives sink

After fourteen years of our battles, I suffered a Stroke

An ambulance came, my brain was in a boat

Floating out to sea, overboard and panic-stricken

I wasn’t swimming, barely awake, and drifting

I had fallen, nothing was working, and not talking

She’s crying, I’m sobbing, my heart is dying

And who’s left to row the boat, I’m thinking

I was jabbed with a needle and silently sleeping

I awoke a day later, in hospital, feeling wasted

My face was limp, mouth parched, was that death I tasted

My mind was active, I thought, where is she

I knew I was bad; the room was all blurry to me

Strong anxieties had set in, I needed to know

Nurses came to me, I pleaded, I wanted to go

“Help me to see her, just give my bed a tow

Please let me go, before I’m covered in snow”

Ivor Steven (c) Sept 2020

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G'day, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I'm an ex-industrial chemist, and a retired plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer. I've been blogging for over 2 years, and writing poems for 19 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I've been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems.

39 thoughts on “Who’s Left to Row the Boat”

  1. Aw. 😦 what a distressing uncertain time. 😦 I can’t even imagine your pain and trauma. 😦
    I’m so glad Carole was there for you and you were there for her during life’s challenges and hard times….even during that time when you both needed a row-er of the boat. You still had each other and each other’s love and support. 🙂
    I’m so glad you are better today. I will celebrate!
    And YES it is rare and beautiful that we still exist. 🙂
    PS…that version of that song is so beautiful.

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    1. I only found that version recently, and the theme of ‘the times there are changing’ suited the theme of my poem…. and yes, I could never explain our situation during that time…. except that I found out the true meaning of the word “love” 💛💚💙💜🌏

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  2. So wonderful to still have you around Ivor! You really went all the way to hell and back! I can’t imagine what you must have been feeling at that time. Your poem expresses it beautifully. Twenty years and counting,,,, One more stroke and you will be converted to a four stroke engine!! OOPs, maybe I should not be making light of your serious situation?
    I am so glad to have learned to know you and read your treasures from that gold mine/mind you talked about today! Stay well my friend!!

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    1. Thank you Dwight, and I giggled at your ‘4 stroke’ engine 😂. Maybe I could use it power my “Itmims” space craft.
      They were indeed testing times. But there were positives,… I learnt the meaning of the word “love”… I truly appreciate the beauty of our existence… and as a major part of my rehad, I started to write poetry during my recovery… And here I am, able to share my experiences of life, with you and everyone else who comes upon my humble writings.. Again thank you for your kindness, I’m broadly smiling and you’ve made my day.. 💙🌏😊🤗

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