The Quill and Self-will

Tired eyes slowly open

The room is blurrily sloping

My lips are numb and dry

And I cannot see the sky

Three weeks I’ve been here

While my body is in recovery

Nurses say I’ll soon be out of this wheelchair

And I’ll be home with community health care

How will I cope I despair

My arm is idle and I cannot weight bear

And my speech is impaired

With a memory drifting in mid-air

I am unable to read or write

And daytime may as well be midnight

Three months have passed by

I am doing a morning crossword and my smile begins to cry

But there is a knowing sparkle in my eye

Upon my notepad I’ve scrawled lines of rhyme awry

Ivor Steven (c) Nov 2020

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G'day, and welcome to my blog site. My name is Ivor Steven, I live in Geelong, Australia. I'm an ex-industrial chemist, and a retired plumber, and a former Carer of my wife(Carole), for 30 years, who suffered from severe MS. I Write poetry about those personal thoughts, throughout and beyond my life as a Carer. I've been blogging for over 2 years, and writing poems for 19 years. Of course a lot of my poems are about my favourite subject Carole, but since I've been blogging my writings have become quite varied, humourous, mystical, observational, and even a few monster/horror poems.

64 thoughts on “The Quill and Self-will”

      1. Yes, but I did 2 more strokes 2 years ago, they weren’t as bad as the first one, but I was 18 years older and it took me just as long to recover from… 😊🌏


  1. Definitely touching. I’m relieved to hear this wasn’t recent. After my broken foot trouble, I’m still amazed every day that I can walk again. I think you captured an important part of your experience really well. And I say ‘part’, because I realise there must have been a lot of things to go through after that.

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  2. I am so glad you are so many years on the other side of that most difficult time. Reading this brought sad-tears and then joy-tears, Ivor. I wish you had never had to endure all of that…but I always try to find the positive in everything and, of course, a HUGE positive is your writing! Look how far you’ve come physically! Look how many people you touch in positive ways by your writing! πŸ™‚ Keep writing! Keep marching forward! πŸ™‚
    (((HUGS))) πŸ™‚

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    1. Hi Carolyn .. I was out under my verandah, cooking lamb chops on the Barbecue… and now I’m smiling at your warm and kind remarks… and thinking of my years as carer, my years of recovering from strokes, my years without my dear Carolyn, and there’s many positives, like the ones you have so graciously mentioned….. but most of all … because of those battles and experiences … I have become betterer person..
      ((hugs – hugs))

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    1. I’ve been receiving some heartwarming comments for my recent poems…so nice know my words are reaching people and being appreciated….. as you know, a piece of me goes into every one of my writings…. thank you Claudia…πŸ˜πŸ˜€


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