Tired eyes slowly open
The room is blurrily sloping
My lips are numb and dry
And I cannot see the sky
Three weeks I’ve been here
While my body is in recovery
Nurses say I’ll soon be out of this wheelchair
And I’ll be home with community health care
How will I cope I despair
My arm is idle and I cannot weight bear
And my speech is impaired
With a memory drifting in mid-air
I am unable to read or write
And daytime may as well be midnight
Three months have passed by
I am doing a morning crossword and my smile begins to cry
But there is a knowing sparkle in my eye
Upon my notepad I’ve scrawled lines of rhyme awry
Ivor Steven (c) Nov 2020
my smile begins to cry …so beautiful and deeply touching
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Yes, I’m smiling and crying with joy at the same time… I think we have all been there,,,
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This sounds like a terrifying experience. If it happened to you, it sounds like you have come through it remarkably well!
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The year 2000, the time of my first stroke… and my quill and will are still going…
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Thatβs amazing! You truly are an inspiration π
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Thanks Ingrid, and I was pleased with how the poem captured my feelings from a long time ago…
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I hope you are well and that this poem is describing an experience in the past or something fictionsl. β€ Take care, Ivor!
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fictional!
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I’m ok Cheryl .. the experience was 20 years ago… It was my response to a prompt.. “What started you writing”…
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Ivor, I am glad it wasn’t a repeat performance! My heart attack was 14 years ago. π
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Yes, but I did 2 more strokes 2 years ago, they weren’t as bad as the first one, but I was 18 years older and it took me just as long to recover from… ππ
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I am sorry, Ivor for what you have been through. I knew you had been sick recently β€ Please take care of yourself. There is only one like you! π
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I keep bouncing back, so I suppose I’m meant to hang around a bit longer.. πππ
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I also hope you are okay? Be well, Ivor! Thinking of you. π
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I’m ok Rose…. It was my response to Patti’s prompt.. “What started you writing”….
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Ahhh, ok. Iβm so glad to hear that you are safe and well. Well done, though!
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Youβve written of a difficult time with hope and courage.
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Thank you Sadje… my self enlightenment has been my reward…
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Youβre welcome! I agree, self-enlightenment is a gift.
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I love your poem. You have come a long way in twenty years π
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A fine poem, Ivor. I, too, liked “my smile begins to cry”
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Thank you Derrick, I surprised myself with how accurately I recalled my emotions..
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Indeed
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Your stroke! And your creative streak that refuses to go. So wonderfully penned
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Thank Beth, and hopefully I’ve had lot, 3 strokes is 3 too many…
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Way too many
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Definitely touching. I’m relieved to hear this wasn’t recent. After my broken foot trouble, I’m still amazed every day that I can walk again. I think you captured an important part of your experience really well. And I say ‘part’, because I realise there must have been a lot of things to go through after that.
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Thank you Angela, Oh, my story since then has been tough, (2 more strokes) but I’m a survivor, and things are ok…
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Beautiful poem, Ivor! You’ve endured more than your share of grief! πΌ π» π
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Thank you Eugenia, and on the bright side of life, I’ve always got a topic to write about πππ
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You had me worried for a moment Ivor. Then I read through the comments. I’m relieved to find that this poem was inspired by a memory and has no connection with your current state of health xx
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Thank you Jane, I suppose that means my poem was very effective and realistic πππ
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It certainly was xx
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Beautifully reflective, Ivor. I’m glad you recovered from your stroke and are here writing.
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Thank you Mary, πππ
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even though this was a while ago, I could feel your deep fear and emotions. great job Ivor!
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Thank you Wendi, actually, I surprised myself at how accurately I was able to recall the emotions πππ
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you sure did!!!
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I feel, as I read, that I am hovering in your room and can witness this so clearly Ivor. Such a frightening time. Your words must have helped you pull through.
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It was definitely a surreal time, and I remember the joy of penning my first words together, and my writings then became my medicine, that I would happily ingest every day…. xx
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Your words are your prescription.
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That must be an awful hopeless feeling! Still you have come back from in and still inspire all of us…Good for you Ivor. Keep on keeping on!
Dwight
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Yes… on and on we go
the quest for answers never stops
until our eternal sun drops
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Your are doing great!!
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Every extra day is a great day my friend π
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Yes it is! Hang in there!
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I’m not sure what it is about us poets. but why does it take a ghastly kick to get the pen going. Nicely done, Ivor
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Oh, it’s the easiest thing to pick up without straining all the other muscles.. ππ
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True dat lol
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I am so glad you are so many years on the other side of that most difficult time. Reading this brought sad-tears and then joy-tears, Ivor. I wish you had never had to endure all of that…but I always try to find the positive in everything and, of course, a HUGE positive is your writing! Look how far you’ve come physically! Look how many people you touch in positive ways by your writing! π Keep writing! Keep marching forward! π
(((HUGS))) π
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Hi Carolyn .. I was out under my verandah, cooking lamb chops on the Barbecue… and now I’m smiling at your warm and kind remarks… and thinking of my years as carer, my years of recovering from strokes, my years without my dear Carolyn, and there’s many positives, like the ones you have so graciously mentioned….. but most of all … because of those battles and experiences … I have become betterer person..
((hugs – hugs))
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Heartbreakingly real β₯ Such hard times to live through.
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Thank you Maranda, yes times have been tough, but I smile at the gift of each new day πππ
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Beautifully penned Ivor! Really great poem! β€
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Another one of these 2.00am poems… although they seem to turning out ok… πππ
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nice to recall how far you’ve come Ivor … keep those poems rolling!
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Haha… sometimes they roll, other times they just trundle… ππ
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in keeping with your energy levels then π
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Yep… you’ve got it !!
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Ahhhh.. you know me….going down the comments …. liking and agreeing with every one … sometimes itβs nice letting everyone else write my feelings for me … π
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I’ve been receiving some heartwarming comments for my recent poems…so nice know my words are reaching people and being appreciated….. as you know, a piece of me goes into every one of my writings…. thank you Claudia…ππ
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Am glad to call you my friend
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The feeling is mutual πππ
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