This time three years ago, was the beginning of my three months is hospital, originally suffering from a “mystery” virus, and then I had a stroke, followed by another minor stroke. … Somehow I managed to write about that three month journey via my poems, and today I’m presenting the first poem I wrote from my hospital bed during that time …
A Blue Shark in My bed
Iβm lying in bed, hallucinating
Theyβve given me too many pain killers
Swimming between soaked sheets
In an ocean of hot sweat
I see a blue shark in my bed
Angrily circling me
That killers glint in his eyes
His giant jaws open wide
And he viciously bites me
Piercing my lower neck
And poking my left eye out
My blood is boiling on the red sea
If this is hell, please ring the bell
I shall pray to save my soul, and be set free
Iβm swirling in drugs, I cannot think
My eyes are shut, I cannot blink
Where are you mum
I was always your number one
Sheβd make me my favourite cake
A passion-fruit sponge sheβd bake
I sense a benevolent friend, if heβs not too late
Smuggling me a gun, past white guards, inside mumβs cake
To you who cannot see me, Iβm an ancient fable
Whoβs about to leave the table
With the rest of the disabled
Iβll look for you, in your higher stables
How can I find my way back?
Iβve lost my winding track
Life for me cannot be the same
Iβm not recovering, Iβm losing the game
Forgotten my name and where to aim
Destiny has me old and lame
Ivor Steven (c) November 2021
so poignant and look at your comeback!
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Haha … one of life’s little miracles
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So glad you got through this Ivor πππ
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I love this as it so clearly describes the meshing of two worlds with drugs taken.. I relate from my own hospital days,
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Thank you Deb.. I thought you would understand my situation πππ
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Hugs π
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So glad for your recovery and continued writing! π
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Thank you Kelley… and I feel very fortunate πππ
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Such a poignant and heartbreaking poem Ivor.
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Gosh – what a powerful evocation of being seriously ill in hospital. It’s wonderful that you survived and are still writing poetry.
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Thank you Sue… I been reading my poems from that time, and they make for some interesting reading … I might repost some of them over the next few days ..
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Sometimes it is part of the healing to go back and look at stuff like that. I was in Geelong hospital for a week a few years ago – it was quite an experience. Three months would be an ordeal. They have so many things beeping and all those PA announcements really got to me when I was on the mend.
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I was in an isolation ward/room for 2 weeks at the start … that was unbelievably surreal .. that’s when I invented/created my space-craft.. “ITMIMS” , Ivor’s Time Machine In Micro Space
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Two weeks is a lonng tttime. I was in isolation for a few days – good practice for lockdown π
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Haha .. I suppose it was ππ
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So eloquent and powerful. Happy to see you doing so much better & Happy Thanksgiving! π₯π₯§π‘π¦πΎ
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Thank you Cindy… yes … it was an arduous experience .. … but in the process I learnt a lot about myself .. ππ€π
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Ivor, this is something else! It pierces the heart of the reader.
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Thank you Bree… I thought I was dying … I was drowning in a different world .. I was in downward whirl …
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Oh, Ivor…and look at you now…wow..πππ€
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Yep .. I’m a little miracle.. ((hugs)) and keep smiling … πππ
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So evocative and the world is pleased you found your way back
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Thank you Derrick .. yep .. Iβm pleased I made it back too ππ
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You’re a blessed guy. Happy thanksgiving π₯³
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Must’ve been, very difficult for you, to experience all of that, but, you’d, recovered, so, it’s, all, but an experrience, that you shall not, forget…
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Not forgotten
Months in Cotton
Life was rotten
πππ
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Ivor, Iβm amazed you managed to write this from your hospital bed: it sounds like a living nightmare! π¦
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I suppose it was a living nightmare β¦ I think my my writings were a way of maintaining my sanity and distracting my mind from the aches and pains .. and now that I look back and read these poems, I am amazed myself at what I wrote during those arduous 3 months ππππ
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Powerful lines…glad to know you’re doing better, Ivor π«
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YAY for you being on the other side…doing well now and writing still! π So pleased you made a comeback!
(((HUGS))) π
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Haha… funny things happen … so ironic today… here I am reposting poems from my times spent in hospital 3 years ago … I get a call from the hospital today … that my long awaited left elbow operation is going happen next Wednesday … the procedure has been delayed because of “Covid”… my left hand has been numb for a year, and they seem to think that the situation can be repaired .. ‘Yeah’ … a day or two, and I’ll be home … π life is full of unusual coincidences .. ππ
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OH, good! Glad you can finally get it dealt with! Then be on the mend. π Prayers and bestest wishes!
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Thank you Carolyn … and it’s been annoying me more lately .. I’m sure things will be betterer after my op’ … πππ
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Hopes and prayers and sure that will be so. π
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Thank you β¦ I have Frankie to look after me πΆπππ
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Yes, you do! and I’m so glad! π
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Wow! that must have been pretty intense for you. It is amazing that you were able to still write this at that time. So glad you made it through!
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I amazed myself Dwight .. and I sure my writing was good for me .. physically and mentally πππ
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This bespeaks of so much fear and agony Ivor. I’m so glad you outlasted that blue shark. π
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Thanks Colleen … I didn’t realise I could swim so fast …
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Thank goodness you can! π
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This is so beautiful, from such intense times.
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Thanks Pragalbha … the words were there in my head… and I wrote them down when I could write again ..
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You are welcome. I am so gflad you did.
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Glad you recovered, Ivor! BTW, was the shark named Oxy? π
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I’m sure he didn’t have a name … in my dream, he was blue and mean, and we weren’t on talking terms .. ππ€π¬
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Ah! π
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I have these shark dreams. I’m in the water, they are all around me but they never attack me. I know they are their but i think they don’t know i’m in the water. dreams can be so strange. especially ones about sharks. right?
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Thank you for reading and your intriguing comments … Many of my poems are created from my dreams … over the years I have developed the knack of jotting down snippets of my dreams in the middle of the night… and in the morning these notes (sometimes!!) trigger a memory of the dream … haha .. it doesn’t always work, but the process has made for some fascinating poems ..
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i get great ideas for my writing from dreams too. π
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